I’m losing my sense of humor.  If I had the heart to take a picture of myself right now, you’d see why. 

I have a huge bandage on my upper right arm with two huge purple ivs hanging off to the side.  I have stubble on the head that I’m told is shaped well.  AS IF a nicely shaped head is really going to offset the fact that it lacks hair! 

I can no longer hide the fact that I am a cancer patient from the outside world.  The hardly subtle sock on my arm that covers the grape iv accessories and hat that covers my well-shaped head give me away all the time.  I hate it.  I am exposed.  It is like walking around naked.  And fat.