I have been healing.  I have been giving myself permission to just be and to let my heart and soul recover.  I have been a bit of a hibernator lately and I’m enjoying it. 

On many nights, I have come home from work and made dinner while Trent goes to the meetings we used to go to together.  I am taking this quiet time alone in the comfort of my home to let the wounds heal.  I am praying and finding relief.  I am feeling calm and peaceful and comfortable in my own skin.

I am giving myself permission to move forward without constant fear and worry.  I may have fear at a future mammogram or oncology appt. but until then, fear is no longer my companion. 

I am being still and it feels so good.

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